No IV's... YAY!!

Well as the title says my clinic appointment went better than expected. My LF is quite stable despite my chest infection so I'm just on orals for now. My FEV1 was up by 0.03L and my FVC was down by 0.1L. My weight has gone up a little to 57.2kg so the dietitian is happy for me to stay at that weight now as I'm finding keeping my weight stable a lot easier. My SAT's where 94% which is a little lower than my normal! So I'm on Ciprofloxcin for 2weeks and have to go back in 4weeks instead of 6 and call them in 2weeks if I'm not feeling any better!

They collared me about the blood test I didn't have last clinic, I kinda ran away before they got me last time but there was no escaping it, it was quite painless though, first attempt! Had my 3rd port flush which actually kind of hurt rather than just uncomfortable for the first time, I then went shopping which probably wasn't the best idea with lifting my arms up and down trying on tops, I have now spent the last of my birthday money but i do have lots of stuff. I think my fave purchase was a black and white stripy t-shirt with a rope belt which I wore yesterday as a dress, it cost a whole £3.99 from H&M! I plan to pop in and get in a few more colours when I go back in 4weeks! I very often think it is very dangerous that I have to walk through the Bullring to get from train station to bus stop that takes me to Heartlands! I was a little annoyed that I had to wait for nearly an hour for a train back to Rugby because I had to get a Virgin train because I had brought the cheapest ticket! Quite luckily though my Mum rang me about 5mins before getting to the station and she came and gave me a lift home, still managed to be out the house for about 8hours, just under 2hours spent shopping so that's 6hours getting to and from clinic and been at clinic! That's not even going on the ward to see anyone! I really wanted to go to this comedy night that night but I was so tired I came in and collapsed on the sofa for the rest of the night but I spoke to the landlords son yesterday and he said it wasn't as good as the first one so hopefully will get to the next one!

Last night I went and got a kebab and only ate a little bit cus it tasted a bit funny and then today I really wish I had not eaten any of it! Have only had liquid all day, mainly fortisip and vanilla milk, but still feel quite sick! Feel really hungry now so going to go make a sandwich and try and keep that down, don't want to start losing weight just after a good visit to the dietitian! And then I thinks me and Ugly Betty (series 2, thanks to my flatmate for my bday present) have a date with my bed!

He who is without sin...

So I didn't ever expect to win any popularity contests after me and John split but it's all starting to get me a bit down now. After I got beck from Spain things seemed to be settling down but it all seems to be flaring up again! Everyone seems to think I'm emotionless because I can look at situations with logic. It's hard to explain properly as there is stuff I just won't put on the Internet but basically when Shelly and my dad brought the kids over John sent me a text to ask if he could see the kids (which didn't get chance to in the end) but it started a text conversation between us and well, like I say I don't wanna say too much online but basically he wanted to meet up and see if we could get back together because he misses me and stuff and I basically don't think it's a good idea to get back together, I know things just wouldn't work, it's all too messed up and even though my heart says go for it I'm going with my head. It might not be the easiest thing but it is the right thing but I just can't make him see where I'm coming from he just thinks I never loved him, which just isn't true. If I could take all this sh*t back and put things right between us I would but I just know when things have gone to far to save...

So, me and my flatmate went over to Coventry for a night out for my birthday and invited 30people and not one turned up! We booked an Ann Summers party for my birthday and had to cancel because we had one confirmed guest, last night some else had an Ann Summers party and nearly all the people who weren't coming to ours went to hers! I know this may sound a little paranoid but I just know it all has something to do with the whole John thing. Again there is more that I could say to make all this a bit clearer but I don't want to put it all online. I'm sure that (aside from a few people) when people are talking to me it's like they are just trying to find out stuff, what I'm doing with my time, who I'm spending it with, just so they can gossip further.

Anyways over the past few days I have been finding out some stuff about people and the things they get up to and it's kinda pissed me off as it seems like I'm been made to feel like a piece of crap on someones shoe when other people aren't getting any grief for doing stuff just as bad! I know one person is sleeping with 2people who are both in relationships with kids, I know one person is possibly pregnant just 3months after coming out of a 5year relationship and she is already seeing someone, I know someone who is having a affair behind her husbands back although she is getting shit for this now its all starting to come out! Anyway aside from the lat example these and some others are the ones that have made me feel like shit over the past few weeks and it just seems that because the fire they are playing with is outside our 'friendship' group then it's OK to do anything but because I do something closer to home I get treated like a complete piece of dog poo! (I know I have done wrong though and I hold my hands up to it, I've held my hands up for the past 2months)

I kinda want to just run away and start my life over again but then at the same time I think f**k it! Why should I? I was born and bred here and I'm not going to let people make me run away or hide away in my flat because they have nothing better to talk about than other peoples lives or talk about others wrongs to distract people from their own! So to those people I stand up and say 'He (or she) who is without sin cast the first stone!' and I highly doubt one stone will come my way!

I'm 24!!

OK I have realised I am actually shocking at updating this blog...

So since I last updated my cold has gone onto my chest, BOO! I have an appointment at Heartlands next week and I am pretty much due some IVs soon, I have been having IVs every 3/4months for the last year and now it's been 4months.

I am now 24! Have had a wicked birthday week so far, things got changed and instead of been here for the weekend my dad, Shelly and the kids came over Monday and went back today. Sadly I still missed my goddaughter birthday party as she had a stomach bug and didn't want to risk catching it! Anyway she liked her present so that's good. Apparently as the plane landed and just stopped Sofia took her seat belt off, stood up on her seat and shouted 'Kate, I'm here!' So cute, I'm really missing her especially already. She turned round to me at the airport and said 'I will miss you Kate' and see calls me 'my Kate' We took her down to see my mums horse and she wouldn't get on him till I would, now this visit to the horses was completely unplanned and I was wearing a sundress, I borrowed some joggers off my cousin but was still wearing my gladiator sandals and got on the horse... I think I am very lucky to have toes left! Lol! We had a BBQ last night which was really nice. My uncle came down and I hadn't seen him for quite a while so it was really good.

I haven't got any of the pics sorted yet but will stick a few on when I get them.


I was meant to be going shopping with Shelly but as I haven't been sleeping well at the night time because of coughing I have been sleeping mainly from about 5.30/6.30am til midday and even that is very off and on. it's starting to get really annoying because I am tired, I get to the point where I feel dizzy and faint through tiredness but I just start coughing again!
I think I may go over to Coventry soon though with my birthday money! Primark here I come!

I need a rest before I go shopping though! A very busy week + not sleeping + chest infection = exhausted! And shopping exhausted is not the enjoyable experience that it should be!

Anyway hopefully with post some pictures tomorrow!

Meh

I have a cold and feel pretty crappy today, I just want to go back to bed! I can't however as my flat looks like a bomb has hit it after last night me and my flat mate spent about 2hours doing a charity shop sort out, OK well truth is SHE spent 2hours doing the sort out and I spent 2hours sitting on the sofa telling her what suited her still, what didn't and robbing all the stuff that was too small for her! Also I have to go for a family meal tonight for my Nan and Grandad's Golden Wedding. I am looking forward to that though, I don't really see my Grandparents as much as I should, escpcially as they are my only living set (I had 3, the best bit of having 2 dad's!). We are going to a local pub where we went for my Nan's birthday and it's quite nice, classy but not snobby and not too pricey! I need to go and find some sort of present for them today which could be a little difficult as they are very, very different... definately a case of oppisites attract! And I am on a very strict budget at the moment! I will find something though, I'm fab at buying gifts!

Right now just to find the energy to do it! LOL!

Oh some good news is that this weekend, My dad, Shelly and the kids are coming over to England for the weekend but shhhh! it's a surprise, my auntie doesn't know and we are planning to surprise her by just turning up at her house! CAN'T WAIT!! Only bad bit is I will have to miss most of my god daughters 4th Birthday party as we are having a family BBQ that day and as I am the only person other than my dad and Shelly that Sofia knows it will help if she gets tired as she doesn't really like strangers if she is tired!

A Few Pics

These are random pics of me, Sofia and Marcus!

I'm BACK!!

As the title says I'm back from Spain... will update properly, maybe with some pics soon!